A Narrow-Eyed Nobleman Is Always Misunderstood

Episode 182 – Why Are You Leaving Me?

Do you know the sorrow of losing a loved one?

Just being together makes me smile.

Just seeing that you are by my side fills my heart with comfort and peace.

This is what it felt like to have someone you love by your side.

They don’t say anything, but they just hold hands and I feel happy.

That’s how I felt when there was someone I loved.

But what about now?

I thought losing a loved one once was enough.

For the first time, when I faced Master’s death, I felt pain as if something had been ripped out of my heart.

The pain felt as if someone had stuck a knife into my chest and was stabbing me randomly, cutting out my heart.

And what I felt next was emptiness.

I can’t remember now what I did to soothe my empty heart.

One thing is certain, I was having a very hectic time at the time.

In addition to preparing for Master’s funeral, I also had to pack up all the luggage in the dormitory.

When I had to enter the room the master was using, I couldn’t even lift my feet from the ground.

It felt like if I went in at any moment, the master would greet me with a smile and say, “Are you here?”

However, when you open the door and enter, what you see is a cleanly made blanket and bed.

And there was only a desk with a few books on it.

When I opened the book on the desk, the master’s handwriting caught my eye.

‘If you use too much force in this area, the sword will not fly well.’

‘The control of an Auror is achieved through the use of willpower gained through training.’

It’s a bit rough, but when I looked at the friendly handwriting, something felt inside me and I had to close the book right away.

When I put down the book and opened the closet to put away my clothes, I collapsed.

The smell of the master can be felt from the clothes.

I felt that the master’s body odor remaining on my clothes was gradually disappearing.

It was so heartbreaking to see traces of a loved one disappear.

Tears started flowing from my eyes without me knowing.

I tried to raise my hand to wipe away the tears, but the more I tried, the more the tears escaped between my hands and fell to the floor.

“Bachelor, master…”

Are you really leaving?

Have you really gone to a place of no return?

Why did you leave me alone?

Why did you leave me alone, why did you leave me alone?

If you’re going to go, it would be better to go together…

When I thought of Master leaving me alone, tears continued to flow.

So, that day, I cried endlessly, holding onto Mr. Master’s clothes.

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That was already two years and six months ago.

No, I’m not sure.

Maybe it’s already been 3 years.

A lot has happened in the meantime.

While conducting research with Professor Julia, we achieved the great feat of making the greatest discovery of the century.

I replaced the feeling of loss of losing my master with devoting myself to magic and research.

In this way, I was given the title of Baron in recognition of my contribution to making the great discovery of the century.

Although I achieved my dream of rising status to the nobility, I was not happy.

I thought I could finally stand in the same position as you, but in reality, the person I wanted to spend my life with no longer existed in this world.

I should be happy if I became a noble, but I didn’t feel that happy.

After all, the title of Baron is a title that cannot be passed down to future generations.

It is a title that is maintained only in the contemporary era.

Now, in order to continue to maintain this noble status, you must marry a nobleman of at least a viscount or earl level.

But I didn’t want to do that.

If it’s not you, you won’t be happy even if you live with anyone else.

If I were to marry someone else than you, I would rather end up living alone for the rest of my life.

As I made that determination, I was offered a professorship at the Royal Academy.

I accepted the offer and spent my busy days teaching students at the Royal Academy.

Then one day, I received a call from the imperial family.

“Baron Nina Gratias Esselton obeys the imperial family’s orders. She appreciates your achievements and orders you to go on a business trip to the Noblesse Academy. She honors this and orders you to leave for the Noblesse Academy immediately.”

A member of the imperial family suddenly came to visit me and told me to leave for Noblesse Academy.

Since it was a sudden business trip, I simply packed my bags and left for Noblesse Academy.

And there, I had to believe my own eyes.

Even though the hair color was different and the length of the hair was different, there was a student who gave off a very similar vibe to Master.

When I saw him, I instinctively thought of you.

So at first I thought I didn’t want to be close to that person.

It was because when I looked at that person, I kept thinking of the master.

[Don’t you want to know where the man who was your lover is now?]

However, as if I was possessed by the telepathy he sent, I went to the place he told me to come out to.

And, there, he took out a handkerchief and wiped my cold sweating forehead.

Often, when I made a mistake, Master would do it for me.

And after a few conversations, I checked the items he gave me.

‘A gift to Master Alberto – Nina Esselton’

The moment I saw it, I understood everything.

The emptiness in my heart that had not been filled was filled with joy and was no longer painful.

The master I thought was dead has now appeared in front of me alive.

I liked it.

I was happy with that.

Because you are alive, I can touch and feel it myself.

I hugged the master.

It’s been three years since we last met, but Master’s body odor hasn’t changed.

Ah, young master, my young master.

Just as you promised, you did not die and came back alive.

Don’t leave my side anymore.

Promise me you’ll never leave me again.

The world without you is so cold and difficult.

So, please don’t abandon me.

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However, despite my wishes, the world has once again separated me from you.

A huge explosion occurred in Maroonbah City.

Maroonbah City was left with nothing but some debris due to an explosion strong enough to destroy a student ID card.

And, the death of the master is certain.

Why does this keep happening to me?

Heaven.

Gods.

If you are listening, please answer.

Why are you subjecting me to such trials and suffering?

What wrong have I done to you?

I wondered if I could fill my empty heart with happiness once again.

I can finally dream of a happy life with you.

Why are my dreams.

Like pieces of glass that shatter and fall.

Like a grain of sand slipping through your fingers.

Disappearing.

If you try to pick up a cloud with your finger, how far will it go?

Even if you try to pick a star in the sky, will you really be able to pick that star?

Was the dream I had just as meaningless as a dream on a midsummer day?

Who should I tell this pain to?

No, even if I share this pain with someone, will they be able to understand my feelings?

Not just once.

Losing someone you love.

Twice already.

The person I love leaves my side.

I won’t miss it again.

I promised, promised, and promised again that I would never lose it again.

Everything has become useless.

Why is this happening to me?

I hope someone can answer.

Please.

Please.

Why does this only happen to me? …

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Nina, who had temporarily left Noble Academy after submitting her leave of absence application, was crying incessantly in her inn room.

“Why, why does this only happen to me… “

Due to the successive tragedies that had happened to her, she was unable to control her emotions and her face was covered in tears.

She was already in a haggard state, and she was shedding tears, so it looked like she was going to collapse at any moment.

“Why don’t you go and see?”

“…”

And there were two people watching her from afar beyond her glass window.

One was a white-haired old man with a thick beard, and the other was a man with his entire body covered in bandages, wearing a mask with a suspiciously smiling, narrow-eyed face.

The two were on the roof of the building, looking at the inn room where Nina was staying, and their identities were Tarun and Alberto.

Alberto wanted to run right away and hug his lover and tell her that I was alive.

But that wasn’t possible.

Because there are people who caused Adalbert’s death and are still tarnishing the empire’s reputation by lowering the status of Noble Academy here and there at all times.

Leaving them alone did not mean the empire would collapse.

However, a happy life that you can live with your lover.

And, in order to live a leisurely life where one can enjoy great desserts without being disturbed by anyone, El-Romed had to be eliminated.

“I have work to do.”

When Alberto said that he would look at Nina’s face her one last time before going to do what he had to do, Tarun silently followed his opinion of her.

“Let’s go. Shouldn’t we wipe out all those El-Romeds or something?”

“Yes. I have to go now, Master.”

Now, we can see that the priestly relationship between Alberto and Tarun has been clearly established by calling Tarun the great priest.

He decided to no longer work under the name Adalbert, but as Alberto.

The last thing he saw was his lover immersed in sadness.

With the straps holding his mask in place, he followed his ambassador out of the city.

It was an unusually beautiful night with the moon and stars shining beautifully.